Fire the Grid Update #2 -- Official News Release!

Exactly one year to the date after my FTG update and interview with Shelley Yates comes the following official news release from the FTG Team (released March 17, 2009):

"The messenger continued onward, driven solely by a deeper understanding that upon the scroll in his hand were words more precious to mankind than his own very life..." - Bradfield

Dearest Friends of Fire the Grid,

Since the beginning of time we have had messengers that brought messages from Divine Source to the ears of humanity. I was instructed to be that messenger for the Fire the Grid event on July 17, 2007. I followed the instructions to the letter and we as a group of humans were successful in firing our earth grid. It re-energized the field around our planet and catapulted humanity in a different direction. Together, we have accomplished a tremendous feat in our unity.

Since that momentous day, I have been quite silent, and I am now ready to share with you what I have been doing this past year and a half. Always know that I am but the messenger, and often times, much as in times of old, carrying a message takes a tole on the human body and on our own energy field.

I have been walking the long journey back to me. I have been healing and becoming strong so that I may pick up this directive where I left off. During the last 18 months I have struggled with the mind, body, spirit connection. That has proven to be well worth the effort. I am in peak physical health I have lost 90 pounds and have gained much needed confidence. I have shed layers of doubt and disbelief. I am strong in this new place of physical health and spiritual connection. My life is full and wonderful. I have wonderful friends and a supportive family. I am happy. I am most blessed.

I now bring a new message. I come to you humble and ready to proceed. I have many instructions left to share with the world, instructions to raise and maintain your personal vibratory frequency field, instructions to assist us with this great time of transition, a way to ease the way.

There will follow a series of messages for the people of earth. They come from a collective energy source whose only desire is to see us all as abundantly blessed as I. They have given me the instructions and on March 28, we will post the next series of instructions on the Fire the Grid website.

Annie and Bradfield have supported my return with unwavering faith. They have stood tall through my most difficult journey and I love and thank them both publically here because without them there would be no Fire the Grid in any capacity. So thank you both from the bottom of my soul. I love you. I would also like to mention that both Annie and Bradfield suffered from not being able to reach out to all of you in my time of absence, as from day one, Bradfield was steadfast that the Fire the Grid website was only to contain my words and the instructions which I have directly received from my Light friends. And thus, in their silence, they were honoring this same integrity, as difficult as it was. Both of them want you all to know that they treasure greatly your wonderful support of their music as well as the relationships they have built with so many of you.

I am ready, but asking those I have hurt or let down is a most humbling place to find myself. Yet that is exactly what I am doing. I am asking for your support, support of the messages of love, support of sharing the physical instructions to assist us with the lifting of our individual fields. This in essence will lift the field of the entire planet.

Why do this you ask?
The answer is to help ease this transition into a new time.

In humbly asking for your support of Fire the Grid and its spin off projects, I promise with my best and purest intention to walk always in the light and present truth the best way I can regardless of what form that may take. I am a fervid servant to Fire the Grid and all other endeavours that have been placed in my knowing.

I remember now who I am and why I have come this time. I am willing and open to be led. I surrender to the guidance and the role I play in its delivery.

I cannot say what the future will look like, nor can I become mired in the details of "how" I or any one of us will make something happen. I choose simply to show up and make myself available. I know that I will be led.

Thank you, thank you, thank you my dear friends for all your past support. Whatever paths we choose to walk I will honour them. I love you all dearly and I am sorry I disappeared from your lives. It was necessary for me to retreat so I could become who I am today.

So once again, I say if my message resonates with your knowing of truth (as with the directions of the original Fire the Grid) please join us on March 28 at the updated Fire the Grid site where I will share the details about the next major energy date and what is coming next. http://www.firethegrid.com

We will be also sharing with you many of the thousands upon thousands of testimonials we received from July 17, 2007 onwards. These are precious words to me indeed as they are your words, your own accounts and experiences describing how you lived the Fire the Grid meditation.

We have a lot to do to make up for lost time, but with Divine Source so benevolently directing, all is in Divine right order.

Big hugs,
Samoiya Shelley Yates

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Shadow Work and Other Musings

Is it my imagination, or does time appear to be speeding up? I mean, I'm a few years away from fifty, and yes, I recall hearing when I was a child, that as I got older, time would appear to speed up. And yes, I have witnessed just that -- especially after the transition from childhood to adulthood. However, the time shift that I have been feeling over the course of the last two years is something altogether more intense and different. I mean, I don't think it's an age-related perceptual thing. I think time is truly speeding up.

That said, I can't believe it's been more than four months since I last posted here. Four months and still no material change in my life, though as far as my heart is concerned, I no longer feel the same degree of blockage that I felt four months ago. I feel restored, and in that regard, though my channeling ability is still off the rails, I'm perfectly okay with that. In fact, one of the main reasons I have returned to post a message is that I have finally come to accept that it is perfectly okay with me if I never channel another message ever again. This is definitely a new mindset for me. You see, it was difficult for me to adjust to the lost connection having had the ability to connect with spirit for eight consecutive years. What a wonderful gift that was, and to suddenly lose it, well, I passed it off as a phase that I was going through. Be patient, I told myself, and it will return. And I was patient. And I was patient some more. And then, a shift in my perspective suddenly occurred. And I'm pretty sure I know why it happened.

About a year ago, I woke up unexpectedly in the middle of the night at my traditional 3:30 am hour and soon found myself channeling a message from The Guardians. The message is posted here. In any event, although the message was clearly directed at me as well as others, I failed to understand why the message was directed at me. The advice that came through pertained to something that I had already done. So, why were The Guardians urging me to do it again? Well, rather than confronting that confusion and realizing an answer, I ignored it. And my life unfolded as it did. And then about a week ago, I posted a link to The Guardians message on the social network, Gaia -- and one of the comments I received surprised me. You see, the woman who left the comment indicated that although she had done similar shadow work in the past, she felt the message was a reminder that the time was right to do more. Well, if this comment didn't cause me to stop and think (I know -- that can be dangerous some times, haha). Anyway, my thought was this: How could I possibly think I was done with shadow work? The shadow work that I had done happened five years earlier, and I had only attempted to clear those blockages that had happened prior to the age of twenty. Yes, the process had been extremely successful. But how ridiculous was it to think that I had not collected all kinds of energy blockages since the age of twenty. I mean, we're talking nearly another thirty years since the age of twenty! Consequently, when the penny dropped (upon reading my Gaia friend's comment), I decided I was finally ready to follow The Guardians advice. I even began to think about where to begin -- what experience to dredge up from the past as a starting point -- however, I wasn't able to make any headway that day as my day was full of commitments. Neverthless, it was definitely my intent to begin as soon as I was able, and wouldn't you know it, that very night I had an extremely disturbing dream -- so disturbing, in fact, I cursed and swung my fists with rage when my wife tried to wake me. Thankfully though, she didn't get hurt by my actions. I am also thankful that I awoke with total recall of the dream --and of course, surprise, surprise -- it was all about a very stressful experience my wife and I endured very early in our marriage (nearly twenty years ago). In other words, the shadow work was underway -- and clearly, there were blockages to be dealt with -- major blockages!

In any event, once I realized I had some work ahead of me, logic began to sink in. And the logic went something like this: Hmmm. I have been living with some serious energy blockages that need to be released, and yet, I have also been channeling messages for people -- in a low alpha state -- meaning, my consciousnness remains very much aware of what is coming through as it comes through -- meaning, my lower self, the one that is rife with energy blockages could very easily influence the channeling without my knowledge (or permission)-- a very good reason why I may have lost my connection. I mean, it suddenly seemed pretty obvious to me: The Guardians knew it was not in my best interest or the interest of anyone else to allow me to channel. Not that my intent wasn't to be of service and to do good work, because it definitely was. It was about the clarity and unbiased integrity of the information. So I was cut off -- or, some aspect of my higher self cut me off -- at least, that was my realization. And guess what? The moment I accepted this as the reason I lost my connection, I felt suddenly ready to post a new message (here) for the first time in four months. I also experienced immediate movement in my external life (where previously everything was so completely and utterly stuck). So who knows? Have I truly turned a corner of sorts? Well, time will tell -- it always does. In the meantime, I am feeling good and hopeful and positive again -- for the first time in a long time -- certainly since I last posted.

By the way, if I seem to disappear from this site for an extended period of time, chances are you might find me posting on my Gaia blog.

Thanks so much for your patience and support!

Namaste,

Mathew

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October 14th Lightship and More

After several unsuccessful attempts to channel guidance for myself and others, I'm sorry to say but I see no option but to suspend my free channeling offer until further notice. I honestly don't know what happened to my connection. All I can say for sure is that my heart chakra feels closed -- similar to how it felt for many years prior to the intervention I was blessed to receive from my spirit guide and my guardian angel (beginning in 1999). In the meantime, I am doing my best to accept the situation with patience and trust.

On another subject, for those of you who followed my posts about "miracles" (back in June and July), nothing significant has changed for me; I am still very much in a similar predicament as I was at the beginning of the summer. That said, this lack of material change, coupled with several small setbacks, plus my inability to channel has caused me at times to experience intense waves of confusion, separation, and frustration -- feelings I overcame for the first time in my life as soon as the aforementioned celestial intervention began in 1999. Needless to say, it has largely been the reemergence of these old feelings that has stopped me from posting for several months now.

On a more positive note, in recent weeks, I have been excited (as many of you have) about the possibility of a coming celestial visitation. I can't say one way or the other whether a Lightship will indeed materialize on October 14th (as Blossom Goodchild has received -- or before the end of 2008 as several other channelers have received). All I can tell you for sure is that the idea excites me. That said, the unfounded excitement I felt as 2007 transitioned into 2008 (see this post) has still not proven itself in any material way -- thus, either my current excitement has something to do with the legitimacy of this predicted event or it could simply be that I was already hoping for something unusually monumental to occur before the end of the year (in order to justify my unfounded anticipation/excitement at the end of 2007). Either way, one can't deny, these sure are exciting times we live in...

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The Light of Grace

On November 11, 2006, at 11:11 am, my friend, Shelley Yates (of Fire the Grid fame), had a naming ceremony in Bedford, Nova Scotia, where she accepted her spirit name, Samoiya, in front of a small group of about sixty or so friends and family. It was a deeply touching ceremony, full of the most heartfelt emotion; I was most grateful to be a part of it.

That said, in the spirit of the last post, the parable, SAGE WOMAN DREAMS OF GOING HOME, written by Marjorie Garner, and in honor of the approaching one year anniversary of Fire the Grid (July 17, 2008), I am posting the following piece, THE LIGHT OF GRACE, written by Shelley Yates, and spoken at her naming ceremony. (By the way, for a recent (2008) update regarding Shelley Yates, Fire the Grid and Project Cause, please see this link.)

The Light of Grace has found me,
Found me here, far from my true home.
It dwells inside me, within me, around me,
Alive, living, breathing connected and whole,
Divinely guiding my human to the peace of ages.
Swirling, divine light connected to source,
Feeding my loneliness for home,
Reminding me that this is just a journey,
Take not the ride too serious,
For one day soon I will be home again,
And these earthly experiences will be but a memory, a thought.

The knowing, the simple knowing that I am a piece of this Divine Light is sheer elation.
To wake and feel the connection; to know I live whole and that I will never be alone again.
This tickles my senses and spreads a deep joy throughout my body.
Morning tingles lead to daylight joy,
Sincere joy, alive in this human, relishing the moment, embracing the difficulties,
So I may learn something new today,
So that I may touch another and share this blessed light,
So that many may see my stride and know,
That peace exists even for those of us who have traveled the dark road.

I have found this joy in life, this light,
The warmest sun upon my face,
Reminding me that home awaits my return from this most difficult journey called life.
The human endeavor, surly my most challenging choice,
But the loveliest sensations bid me, find peace in the moment,
In the moment lay the sensations that make the journey worthwhile.

All this too shall pass and the lesson will be a piece of me,
To pass and share, to shine light for others,
So they too may find the peace of which I speak.
Joyous lighted peace of the heavenly Divine,
Holding me close simply through choice,
Seek and ye shall find,
Ask and it shall be delivered.

Know thy own light and the truth shall you set you free,
Free to be, alive on this plane with bliss in your heart sharing the journey.
Know thy brethren for they will assist in the tale; creating together.

With lighted joy I take the real piece of me to the front,
Pulled free of the human restraints I now find me,
I bring to you the very best of me, my full potential revealed,
I am Samoiya, warrior for the Divine, seeker, knower,
Sharing the knowledge, sharing the light,
So others too may find the path,
And light the way for those that follow,
Finally, One with Light of Grace:
One earth, One mind, One Light, One race.
Beautiful in our individuality,
Most alive when we share our light with another.

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A Beautiful Parable

The following parable, SAGE WOMAN DREAMS OF GOING HOME, was written by a new friend of mine, Marjorie Garner, of Butte, Montana. It was written at Notch Bottom, on the Big Hole River, near Glen, Montana --- population 7:

The sound of the Big Hole river --- lapping --- slowly moving --- October-like --- the color a deep navy blue. I could sit here and breathe in the smell of sage 'til I fill up with the fragrance --- so big, so strong, that I become part of the sky --- like quaking aspen leaves, floating in the air. And little pieces of me, little round dry leaves will float for miles, --- across the river, into the cottonwoods, over the prickly pear cactus, the juniper, the sage, the greasewood and rabbit bush --- over everything --- until the pieces of me --- the dry leaves ---finally reach the golden eagle rookery.

And a young eagle --- while soaring in the sky --- will say to its mother: “What are all these little dry leaves --- falling from Heaven? They look like aspen leaves, but they’re not.”

And his mother would answer:

“Oh, those leaves are just pieces of that woman who loves sage. I’ve seen her here before. I’ve seen her pick sage twigs and juniper twigs and put them in her pocket. I’ve seen her looking up at us when we’re in the sky, craning back her neck until she fell over. I’ve seen her sitting on the ground, holding sage against her nose, breathing it in. I have seen her tears. I knew something like this would happen to her if she kept doing that, and she probably knew it too.

She loves this place. She loves our sky, our river, the willow, the juniper, the greasewood, the rocks, the old bones, the wild flowers --- everything of the earth and sky she loves. She even loves the little high-tailed chipmunks that scurry around. Those tiny little chipmunks --- you know --- the ones we like to eat for dessert!

I know all this because I’ve watched from the sky, with my eagle eye. I’ve seen her on her back staring at our sky, watching the clouds roll across --- the dolphin clouds, the shark clouds, the lace clouds, the long finger clouds. I’ve seen her face down on the ground, kissing it! Can you imagine?

And that’s where she wanted to be --- a part of the earth --- and that’s where she is now. She breathed in so much sage she turned into floating aspen leaves and became a part of everything --- as we are.

So, my son, the leaves you see floating through the air, they ARE Sage Woman.

I’ve heard her pray for rain, a healing rain, and it would come. Whatever she asked for, it would come. She asked to be a part of mother earth, and --- so --- now you see --- these tiny pieces floating through the air --- these little aspen leaves, they ARE Sage Woman, and

SHE HAS COME HOME.

SHE HAS COME HOME.

*****

A note from the author:

Mathew, by all means, post the Sage Woman story on your website --- a great honor for me. It's odd, but when I first wrote the parable about 13 years ago, many connections of Spirit began to occur because of the writing --- I met people I would have otherwise never known --- people who saw the parable through friends who had copies --- I have never promoted myself --- it is always word of mouth. As it happened, my little grandson was with me and my older son that day --- he was fishing with his dad on the Big Hole river --- and I sat in the jeep or walked around looking at the exquisite beauty of nature in that area.

I had nothing to write on, so I found a big manila envelope in my son's vehicle and began to draw a chambered Nautilus on one side. Then, being fairly bored and too warm for comfort, I turned the envelope over and began to scratch out the feelings I was having at the time. Of course, the woman is me, and the sentiment was a deep feeling I had --- a sadness about what was happening to our Mother Earth, and what was happening in my life. A yearning to "go home." To go home is the yearning we all have, so I guess that accounts for the strong emotional response people have to the story. And the fact that we are all "connected."

When my grandson came back to the vehicle, I read the story out loud to him. He said, "Gramma, I loved the part where you fell over backwards." We had in fact been watching golden and bald eagles that morning, craning our necks back until we almost fell over. The area is filled with eagles, and other magnificent wildlife --- bears, wolves, elk, antelope, beaver, blue heron, and a river so pure and deep blue in color --- filled with native fish. A very, very isolated place --- to get there you must pass over a road filled with boulders and mud --- but, oh, the reward.

So my grandson asked me to type the story up (had no computer in those days) and I did, and sent it to him in Butte, where he was living with his mother at the time. He took it to school. All the English teachers at his grade school shared it with their students. Then someone at the college I was attending asked if they could publish it in a journal, and her husband, who was a filmmaker, wanted to meet me and find out who "wrote that?? Then, I was communicating with a lady who had a website called Sage Woman, and she asked to put it on her site. Then a friend of a friend asked to put it on her website, and a half brother asked to put it in his little magazine, and finally, the best thing of all --- a Japanese lady who was teaching Japanese at the college I was attending --- and who had experienced Hiroshima first hand --- read the story after I had given it to her as a birthday present (not having money to purchase anything for her). She was a very, very reserved lady, and so intelligent and spiritual. She came to school the next day and thanked me for the story, and then burst into tears. She said it touched her at a deep level. I was appointed her "guide" and assistant during her one year stay. It was magnificent to share with her --- I miss her to this day.

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Okay, So Where's the Miracle?

Back in early June I gave a brief account of how a series of fortunate events transpired that promised to keep me afloat until early July. Well, since that time, a series of unfortunate events occurred that worked against that promise. For starters, the two potentials I spoke of in early June both fell apart as easily as they materialized. Then, two other means of financial assistance that I had been promised and counted on, both fell apart without notice. Consequently, four days ago, I found myself in the unenviable position of having to ask my father-in-law if he was in a position to loan me some money. Talk about humbling. Not that he did anything to make me feel uncomfortable. In fact, he was surprisingly understanding, encouraging and kind, and actually offered me double what I asked for (and he is not a wealthy man by any means). So, in spite of my belief in myself and in my alignment with the universe, money did not fall into my lap in any of the ways that I expected it to. So now what? Was it wrong of me to expect a miracle? Should I revise my beliefs because I ended up in a position where I had to ask a family member for a loan? Or do I continue to follow my heart and my passions in the belief that there is no higher road that the universe wills for me to follow?

I would appreciate hearing your responses, whatever they might be. But I will tell you this -- over the course of the last several years I have had many conversations with my wife about this very thing -- especially when we have been close to the financial edge (and yes, there have been several times) -- and my wife has always taken the position that I should go out and get a job -- any job -- regardless of whether I like it or I am passionate about doing it. In her opinion, when you need money, you do whatever you have to do to make money. Funny thing is, I believed this too for more than twenty-five years. And I did just that -- I went out and made a lot of money at the expense of my happiness, at the expense of my relationships with my wife and my children -- and then the angels interceded in my life and slowly but surely, they taught me that there was a better way to go. Consequently, for the last eight years, I have been doing my best to follow their advice, and although it has not been easy, I am still standing, my family relationships are stronger than they have ever been, I have actually completed some creative pursuits that I have never been able to complete before in my life. And perhaps even, God willing, I will soon see some money from these pursuits. In fact, the day after I arranged the family loan, a potential investor in one of my projects materialized and requested a meeting for Thursday of this coming week.

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Finding Your Life's Purpose

Why should you Find Your Life’s Purpose? by Ineke Van Lint.

Many spiritual traditions revolve around one central question: “Who am I ?”

Even the business world ponders this crucial matter. According to business gurus, the first step on the road to success is asking yourself this very question:“What’s my mission? What on Earth am I doing? Am I in the right place?”

If you can’t answer these questions, then you are wasting 90% of your time and energy doing things that are neither your mission nor your business!

You will feel an inner anxiety, urging you to search for the deeper meaning of your life.

If you consider living to be painful, if you feel dissatisfied, if you feel “there must be more than this”, if you feel out of place in this world, then you have not yet found the purpose of your life.

If you are questioning the meaning of life, if you can’t find inner peace, if you are not satisfied with choices you’ve made in life, if you don’t know which way to turn, if you feel your life is stuffed with things that aren’t of your choosing and that don’t satisfy you, if you often feel burdened and bad-tempered, if you “have everything to feel happy” but don’t, then it is time for you to discover your true self!

Human beings want to feel useful. We long to give our lives some deeper meaning. As long as you have not discovered this deeper meaning, you feel frustrated and on the wrong track.

We want our lives to be worthwhile. This does not mean we need to achieve ‘great feats’ or become world famous. We just need to feel in place and do the right thing surrounded by the right people. It’s about finding out our mission. It’s about finding ‘inner peace’.

Our mission on Earth is twofold. The general aspect is that we are here to learn to bring more love into the world. The personal aspect is that everyone has its own peculiar, unique way of doing this.

Your mission represents the central piece of your life.

The surrounding pieces represent your family, your relationship, your kids, your job, your home, your health, your friend, and so on. The centerpiece holds all of this together.

That centerpiece, that’s you. You are the most important person in your life, and you came to this world to do something important. Otherwise you simply would not be here!

As long as you haven’t identified the centerpiece, you’ll be wrestling with dissatisfaction, powerlessness, frustrations and fatigue.

Some people solve jigsaw puzzles by first fitting all the pieces on the borders, and then squeeze in the piece in the middle. That’s putting the cart before the horse.

These people reason: “When I find the right partner, find the right job, get paid a good salary, have some kids, have my own house, meet some friends, stay healthy, then I will be happy!” But that’s not the way things work.

As long as the centerpiece is missing from the puzzle, you too will feel empty inside. It is your responsibility to discover your mission and get things under way.

Even the cells of your body react to this lack of purpose, this feeling of emptiness. They suffer from spiritual malnutrition, feel useless and bored, resulting in a physical state of sluggishness and lethargy. This physical state will eventually cause several physical discomforts and complaints.

Occupying yourself with “your disease” and “feeding” yourself with medication or other such products is just another attempt at filling the void inside. This is because the status of “being ill” allows you to identify: “I am allergic to this or that, I am a cancer patient, I am an Alzheimer, I am…” Once you have started identifying yourself by your disease, it will certainly be on your mind day and night.

If you are not in touch with your own desires, you will easily fall prey to expectations projected upon you by your environment. If you are not following your own path, then you must be following someone else’s! If you are not clear on your own life mission, you will find it hard to say “no” to what other people want you to do. This undecidedness makes you available for all who cross your path and want a piece of you, draining your energy.

As long as you are not clear on the shape of that centerpiece, you are submitted to others who may not care about what’s best for you. Just like disease, these kinds of negative relationships are a manifestation of low-level energy, showing that you have lost focus and have strayed from your own golden brick road.

Your self-esteem is probably pretty low and you suffer from serious doubts and fears.

The longer you put off the search, the more the feeling that something is missing will devour you. Your self-esteem will only decrease.

The best way to rebuild your fragile self and re-establish an inner sense of security is to make the search for your life mission your number one priority, and subsequently fully dedicate yourself to it.

Why is this so important? Because you can only find real joy in life by discovering and living according to the unique way of your personal evolution.

But, maybe you think, can’t I just continue living life the way I have been all along? My life may not be all that exciting and rosy, but it’s still doable. Can’t I just try to hang in there and keep the status quo?

The answer is “yes”. You can keep living your life in a monotonic, sad, senseless way. But don’t expect any real satisfaction. The need to feel useful is so fundamental that you cannot feel happy as long as you have no clue what you are here for.

That’s exactly the difference between humans and animals. For an animal it may suffice to just sleep, hunt and eat, but humans look for the deeper meaning of life. Humans “know” that we are here on Earth for something more important than just eating, sleeping and working.

Your mission gives meaning to your life. Your mission IS your very reason for existence.

You are not alone in this search. This mission is also looking for you. It wants to be fulfilled by you and by nobody else. It is your personal mission. Nobody else is equipped to do it for you. Your mission will keep haunting you until you take it seriously and start implementing it.

Going against your mission is going against yourself. This is the same as ignoring the call of your soul, as ignoring your strongest desires, as signing a contract for eternal discontent...

You can’t escape your mission. One day you will have to start dedicating yourself to it.

Has this day come for you now? After all, you are reading these lines which shows your honest desire to start looking for the deeper meaning of your being.

*****

Written by Ineke Van Lint. My main goal is to get your energy and excitement flowing again and to make you create a life filled with enthusiasm, by passing you my energy, experience and tools so you can find your passion and your reason for living and realize your dreams and yourself.

Ineke Van Lint is a practicing psychologist and workshop leader.

She holds a degree in psychology, is an International Facilitator in Kinesiology, an International Instructor in Brain Gym (which is sometimes called Educational Kinesiology), and is a member of Mensa International. She lives in Luxembourg.

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Miracles -- An Update

Just thought I would provide a quick update to my post about miracles. It's June now, and when I posted about my finances back on May 4th, I didn't know what was going to happen to allow me to cover my expenses into June. Well, although nothing major happened to improve my overall financial status, I did have a few minor happenings that are worthy of mentioning. For starters, two of my credit cards automatically extended my credit (without a request) -- so I am now able to cross the threshold into July. Also, because my wife and I patiently waited for four months for our apartment management to arrange repair of a minor plumbing problem, management not only fixed the problem, they decided to reward our patience with a substantial discount to June's rent. Taken together, these three things had a significantly positive effect on my finances. Would I be so bold as to call them miracles? Why not? I didn't seek any of it. And I certainly needed the help. And the help materialized. In the meantime, two other situations have developed that might also provide me with money. I don't wish to speak about them in any detail yet since neither of them are sure things, however, once again, both of these possibilities fell into my lap in the last two weeks without any effort on my part.

In the meantime, I hope you will come back to find out how my family and I will make it through to August. By the way, when I say "make it" I am not suggesting that we are by any stretch of the imagination scraping by. We are not foolhardy with the funds we have, but at the same time, we are not frugal either. For instance, I just made a trip to Toronto last week to help one of my daughters move. And the week before that, my wife travelled to Toronto and then on to Ohio for a Doll Making workshop. In other words, life hasn't come to a stop just becuase our finances are at an all time low. We are simply living day to day and trusting that all is well.

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The Lightworker's Prayer

From The Lighworker's Way by Doreen Virtue:

I choose to stay centered in the awareness of love, God, and my true self. In this center, like the eye of a hurricane, all is tranquil, safe, and peaceful. My power, wisdom, and peace comes from staying in this center, and I ask for spiritual support from God and his angels to keep my mind aligned with truth. I willingly detach from the material world, knowing that by so doing, I can effectively help others. I trust God to provide my every need, and I allow His omnipotent wisdom to direct me in all ways. I accept a steady diet of love and joy, knowing that I deserve happiness and health. I willingly and lovingly release all ego judgment about myself and other people, knowing that everything I want comes from my decision to experience the oneness of all life. I know I am meant to be a healer and a teacher for God, and I now accept my mission fully without delay or reservation. I surrender all behaviors that would block me from hearing my inner voice, and I happily trust my inner guide to lead me along the lightworkers way, where I joyfully serve as an instrument of love. I release any doubt or fears I may have about fulfilling my Divine mission, and I now commit to staying aware of my inner Voice for God. I know that this is the only tool I will ever need for my own healing and the healing of the world.

Amen

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Miracles… Do they really happen and is it wrong to expect them?

Having had only three months of paid employment in the last three years, my finances have finally come to the end of the line. Credit cards are maxed, assets have long been liquidated – there is enough credit left to wiggle through May, and maybe just maybe enough to cross the threshold into June, but truly, not a penny more. Game over. Done. Finished.

So what happens then in four, five, six weeks time? Will my family be evicted and forced to live on the street or will some miraculous solution save us? And what is my responsibility insofar as causing a miraculous solution to manifest? Should I begin to do something that doesn’t feel right in my heart just because I have run out of money? In other words, does the apparent severity of my situation necessitate compromising my beliefs and values? Or do I simply continue to do just as I have been doing for the last three years – that is, everything I can do to align myself with God/Love and the perfect/purposeful Universe? I mean, if God is truly the loving, benevolent, compassionate and perfect/purposeful Creator that I know Him to be, doesn’t it make perfect/purposeful sense that this same Creator will always provide me with a means to support myself and my family when I align myself with His will? Or have I completely lost my way on this one? I mean, am I naïve? Am I a spiritual Pollyanna? Is it also possible that I just think that I am in alignment (and that I have achieved some semblance of understanding) when truly, somewhere along the way my understanding has taken a calamitous turn into delusion?

Clearly, I see two choices before me: Continue to trust in my cumulative experience and receiving, or throw in the towel and go looking for a job – any job – just something to get me through this period of financial stress.

Well, believe what you will – but I see this period in my life as a test of faith. And given all that I have experienced and received, I am unable to abandon my beliefs/values/understanding (even if temporarily) just because the material plane continues to persist in reflecting lack and challenge. Thus, I am asking for a miracle. And I have no doubt that a miracle will soon take place.

All is well.

Peace.

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